My victory over “I’m not lovable”

Life of Wellness - My victory over I'm not lovable

Have you ever noticed that everything you suffer from all comes down to one or two limiting beliefs? That it can stop you from true happiness everywhere in life? For me, this is the belief “I’m not lovable”.

How it all started

Here I am living the life of a free child when all of a sudden a moment occurs. A moment where in an instant everything changes. At that moment, a 5-year-old said: “I’m not lovable”. It wasn’t true of course, it was the reaction of a child. And yet, I have spent 40 years finding evidence that it’s true. Discounting and dismissing all the evidence to the contrary. Each time confirming how right I am!

I have been living a life within the belief of a lie. And this lie, RUNS ME! I can see it in my marriage where I consistently doubt, I live in fear that one day my incredible husband of 23 years will see the truth and leave me. It’s in my friendships, where I never quite understand why I even have a friend in the first place, I spend my time trying to make up for my lack of being lovable through “helping”. I can even see it in my business when I am afraid to put something out there and fear that you won’t see the value in it.

Who I have to be to keep the lie

This week I saw something about it that I really didn’t like. Okay, actually if I’m honest it kicked my ass! I saw who I have to be with people to keep the lie alive. I have to be someone who treats people as too stupid to see the truth. That I make my friends and family wrong for loving me. I actually discount everything they do to show me their love. Instead of accepting it, I actually think, wow if only they knew the truth. And what I’m really saying is they aren’t as smart as me, and if they were they would know.

In cleaning this up with them I found out how exhausting it is for them! You see I knew it was exhausting me, hiding how unlovable I am is what both keeps me up at night and what I pass out to. But in speaking with people authentically about the lie I’ve been living in, I found out that they felt not good enough and had to try to love me even more so I’d finally see it and believe them. UGH!!!

Busting up the lie

Seeing it isn’t enough to bust it up! We know so much these days. We have access to more knowledge than at any time in the history of the world. And yet, we are more unhappy, we have less health and well-being. So knowing isn’t the answer.

You see once I discovered this lie, I was able to come clean. To share it all with my family and friends, and even share it so easily with you. And now that I have seen that I said it in the first place, that I created it.

I now can see clearly all the ways I allowed some people in my life to treat me with disregard. How I made it okay, and actually welcomed it because it made the lie true. I can also see all the people who have been fighting to help me see the truth of who I am in the world. Who I am for my family and friends. And I can honor them by being my best self!

I get to declare something new for my life. Now, I can create my life of respecting the amazing people in my life for the incredible people they are. I can accept and acknowledge the big and small things they do to show their love to me and the world. And most of all I can be free from the things a five-year-old said. To live my life fulfilled and with joy.

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