My moment was knowing I was sick and feeling helpless. When I look back, I blamed the doctor. How could he let me get sick. Why would he not give me what I needed to get better. Or support my feelings of the victim?
To be… or not to be… the victim
Feeling helpless is not a place I like. Not knowing where to turn, confused and scared. But I had a choice, I could stay there, or I could fight. I chose to fight. Fight for my health, my confidence, my self empowerment and my life.
Now where to start, if I didn’t know what to do, well what should I do. And then I realized, I had my tribe. We all have one, it doesn’t have to be big, or small, it’s still there. In my tribe I have strong people, many women, who have taken control. What if I just let myself be vulnerable and ask for help. What’s the worst that could happen?
By reaching out to my tribe and sharing I was able to find comfort, support and a path to start on.
Owning my journey
Many people have asked me what was it that made me healthy? There are many answers the right food, the right excercise, the right mind. But the truth is, they all came because of one thing. Self care! The moment I took control of my knowledge, my actions and myself, the true journey to wellness began. This meant having the right coach, the right tools, and being the one in charge of how I used them!
The moment I saw results
We live in a world so focused on goals, results and measureables. Yet when it comes to health and wellness, you may not always see the results. We have all conditioned ourselves with self doubt, self harm, self pity. Then, when something truly amazing is happening we become blind to it. So the challenge is finding the truth through clarity, through seeing yourself for who you really are. Sounds easy, but for me and I would guess so many of you it is actually the hardest thing we have to face.
In my next post, I’ll tell you about the day I took off my self-loathing glasses and saw the true me. How I made this transition of self love, care and acceptance.